3…2…1 Countdown to Chemo

When I was a little girl, I loved to countdown to the important days in my life: Birthdays, the last day of school before the start of summer vacation, and especially Christmas. My sister and I would begin wishing each other Merry Christmas Eve about a week before December 25. “Merry Christmas Eve’s, Eve’s, Eve’s, Eve’s, Eve’s, Eve’s, Eve!” It became kind of a game to see who would start it. We still do this even as adults.  🙂  Looking forward and counting down to big days is natural for me. Since first being diagnosed with breast cancer a month ago, I have known I will start chemotherapy at some point. Now with just 24 hours to go before my first infusion, I would like to stop the clock. Do I really have to do this? Isn’t this whole thing just a bad dream and can someone please wake me?

Yet even in this dark anticipation, I know God is with me, reminding me of His love and faithfulness. I went on a hike this past weekend with my kids. It was an incredible day, one I will never forget. God’s love was demonstrated in the beauty of His creation and in the faces of my children.

Mother and daughter rejoice!

I will remember this glorious day when I am sitting in the chemotherapy room on Wednesday. I will recall the smiles of my children and cool mist from the waterfall. I will focus on God’s love and mercy poured out to me everyday. Some days are delightful and some days are dark, but in every day, God is faithful.

“Teach us to number our days aright, that we may gain a heart of wisdom.”   Psalm 90:12

Kate and Cullen at Lake Clementine Trail


I am so thankful for the many demonstrations of God’s love. I am blessed.

“For you make me glad by your deeds, O Lord; I sing for joy at the works of your hands.” Psalm 92:4


A beautiful day


9 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Jenayu
    May 30, 2012 @ 00:15:31

    So encouraging to see you so positive!! You are truly a blessing 🙂 God still has many great and wonderful plans for you through all of this. Stay strong in the Lord..He is always with you!
    Praying for you and yours!

    In His Name,

    “For God has said, ‘I will never fail you. I will never abandon you.'” (Hebrews 13:5b NLT)


  2. erinambrose
    May 30, 2012 @ 05:31:50

    Thanks so much, Jenayu. I am so encouraged by your comments and always feel uplifted by God’s Word.


  3. a_seed
    Jun 01, 2012 @ 04:55:48

    I will cheer on too…


  4. Rhonda
    Jun 04, 2012 @ 23:55:34

    Our prayers are with you. Know that you are loved.


  5. Olena
    Jun 08, 2012 @ 20:46:31

    Erin, you are in our prayers 🙂


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